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I got dat whole ‘forgive but don’t forget’ mindset going on. But I also got dat ‘I can’t trust anyone’ going on too

# oops probably crept like four people

I know what you all think of me. You’ve each branded me with your own label of all the negative things you’ve pinpointed about me and shared with each other. Now it seems like the bad outweighs the good in our entire friendship. I’m too mean. I’m a backstabber. I’m an attention seeker. I’m malicious. I’m a leech. I’m too much of a liar. I’m egocentric.

How do you expect me to feel when you all threw it at me at once? It’s different if you told me gradually, but no. It’s wicked. What? Are you all going to be mad at me for not coming because it’s to work it out. Honestly it’s not even about the club anymore, who gives a shit. It’s way past that. I’m so fucking hurt. Maybe I want to be selfish and not actually want to feel like shit again. Maybe I want to be selfish and not think about how sad I am. Because I don’t want to cry anymore. What much of a difference will it make to plead my case to a bunch of people who don’t believe me?

"You crave the deepest connections with others, but you don’t trust to let anyone in."
-Unknown (via psych-facts)

(via donny-tran)